Did you know that I am in fact alive and breathing?
Been away for far too long.
So much that's gone on inside of me. So much is wrong and I'm such a waste...
I've become something I hate. I have reason for being as sad as I am all the time. I have reason that they are all blind to...
I'm still trying to pick up the pieces of myself. They can't be fixed, but I still have to do something with them...
It sucks not being able to talk to anyone who can possibly understand the turmoil and hoplessness that has taken over the hole in my chest where my heart used to be.
I'm over her now. I know now how crappy a girlfriend I was and have now resolved that I will never get involved with anyone again...
Cheryl... I've wanted to talk to you for the longest time. I wrote you a long letter a couple days ago and have no address to send it to you. I rarely ever have access to a computor nowadays and phone? The only one is Taylor's and she's not fond of me using it.
Do you know what makes everything feel so much worse? Learning that the past 3 years of your life have been nothing but lies...
So many lies... and she wonders why I feel no guilt for lieing to her ever...
Oh yes... Taylor is a girl. That is what we are supposed to call her. Jasmine is happy about that. I know that's not the truth...
So Cheryl... get in touch with me soon if you can. Please.... I need my big sister.
Hoplessly;
Amanda
12:54 a.m. - 2006-07-12
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