wow... there is more drama going on.
Jasmine has been really..... mean. she's been a bad friend and a bad wife to Taylor.
I've known forever how bad she lies. Taylor used to believe everything she says. she doesn't now of course.
But it's gotten to where she's just outright cruel about everything. I don't hate her, because i don't hate anyone, but i really don't like her.
taylor told me that i am like family to her yesterday. that actually means so much to me. that's a big deal. she and i are always taking care of eachother. i promised her forever ago that i wouldn't leave her, and i've kept it. most promises i made back then i have kept. some i've broken. it was really bad, but she told me she forgives me for that.
Jasmine though... i don't understand her. Neither Taylor, or I, can live like this. She act's just like my mother used to act. Maybe that's why i dislike her so much.
Taylor and I are trying to have a really good christmas. I hope we can. Last year was bad and I am to blame for that.
It's been almost a year when I first came to Texas. Almost a year of not being with the only one i will ever be able to love.
She asked me yesterday if i ever felt like we were still together. You know what I do. We do eveything a couple would do except kiss, hold hands,or make love. We are super fucking close. we talk to eachother about more things than we talk to anyone else. We trust eachother the most. We take care of one another. We sleep together without having sex. We act like a family...
But she knows how i feel about her.
Like a painter, God has breathed you into life.
A gorgeous shadow of divine paradise.
Nothing more to say than the words behind my tongue.
For me you'll always be the only one.
Though I can feel you there's things that stand between.
I cannot hold you, but you mean eveything to me.
I will lie here and dream of what there once was,
and try to see what lies ahead for me.
You are my angel
as I've always said you were.
I feel so sorry for evey single hurt
that you have felt, and I have felt, it never should have been.
We both gave up and let the darkness win.
I pray that someday
I can hold you in my arms.
Please believe what I'm saying.
I have never not loved you.
All those lies that tore us apart are slowly being mended.
The only name that my ears will ever yearn is Taylor.
8:18 p.m. - 2006-12-03
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