Well... needless to say I had a rough weekend. But the peak was when I killed the goldfish.
I had Taylor's goldfish for less than 48 hours. Saturday I filled the tank up to the filter so it could get filtered. Taylor had well water, I have city water. My water has all these chemicals that his doesn't. The fish diead. I flipped out, ran into my mom's room screaming that she needed to come out now. She was in her underwear. I ran back to my bedroom and sat in front of the tank staring at the now belly-up fish. She told me it was dead. I couldn't stop crying and I screamed at my mom when she was trying to touch the fish. I was like "Don't touch him!!!" I was so upset.
That night Taylor called me back and I told him that I had killed the fish. I told him how I cried. He thought it was funny. It was not!!!
Not only was he Jasmine's fish, Taylor, me, Amber, and Jasmine all got him together. So it has sentimental value.
I spent the weekend in my room, moping around and being pathetic.
Mom still isn't really letting me talk to Taylor.
Last night I snuck my phone out of my mom's room and called him at like 1:20. It was so good to hear his voice and hear how happy he is. He got upset when I said that I thought it would be longer that three weeks. He said "Don't you have faith in me?" How can I explain why I thought that? ~shrugs~
I made pancakes this morning. They were really fucking good. Lots of syrup and butter. Butter my cakes =).
Thank you hothead and gayteen14 for all your love. I really apreciate it.
I'm going to camp on June 5th. Camp Anytown. I'll be there for 6 days. I'm scared though cuz Taylor is all like "It will change your life." I am happy though because I will be away from my mother and the rest of my family for almost a week =).
Well... I don't have anything else to say so laterz.
? Amanda
8:36 a.m. - 2005-05-02
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